Last week, I wrote about the agony of what I went through with the loss of my infant child. You can read about it HERE.
That is my story, but we go through loss and experience traumatic events from which we feel like we may never recover.
And the triggers, the things that send us reeling, can not be anticipated. And even if we can anticipate them, the emotional overwhelm takes over and is completely debilitating.
After the loss of my son Benjamin, I got pregnant with my now 13 year old son Josh soon after. Needless to say, I was petrified being pregnant again. Even though I was assured that the shots I was giving myself twice a day would ensure carrying my baby to term, I was a mess most of the pregnancy.
When I got sick with the severe pre-eclampsia with Benjamin, I had such a terrible headache because my blood pressure was off the charts. I was so close to having a seizure and/or stroke, that the doctor sent me directly to the hospital. Every time I got a headache during my two subsequent pregnancies (I also have an 11 year old daughter), I would take my blood pressure and would cry because my anxiety would be off the roof! I was always afraid I would develop the pre-eclampsia again.
When Josh was born, he was a healthy, full-term baby! However, he developed jaundice right as he was supposed to be released from the hospital. He had to go under the lights in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit (NICU). I had a full blown panic attack as I walked in and saw him in the incubator and hooked up to the monitors. The sounds of the monitors and the familiar smell of the NICU made me weak. It was beyond my comprehension that I was back in the NICU. The nurses tried to reassure me that it was not the same situation, but logic went out the window. I couldn’t breathe and I couldn’t stop crying. I was given a sedative to calm down.
When Lucy was three years old, she had a seizure that lasted thirty minutes. It was an out of body experience for me. We were taken in the ambulance to the same hospital Benjamin passed away in. And as they wheeled her in on the stretcher, I had another full blown anxiety attack. I almost fainted and wanted to jump on the stretcher with her. I was alone with her and alone in my agony.
Even with mild illness, I would panic. The trauma energy of ‘my child could die’ reared its head often. After Lucy was diagnosed with epilepsy (she has since outgrown it), fevers would bring on the seizures. I distinctly remember her sick with a stomach virus in my bed, at four years old, and I was sobbing uncontrollably.
The human experience is one in which we have traumas that are incomprehensible. Sometimes we don’t know how we survive the things we do when forced with an emergency or difficulty. How do we get through it?
I have so many more than the above stories, as I have gone through so many life and death moments. Sometimes I can’t even believe I have been through so much.
And I know you have too.
Do you ever look back and say, “Holy crap! How did I get through that?” I know I do daily.
My subsequent pregnancies and my children’s early years were very traumatic for me and I never fully processed the emotions until years later.
With trauma, most of us just force down the emotions and don’t release and process them because it is just too difficult. I realize now, I was just in survival mode.
There is a lot of value in positive thinking but I do believe we need time and space to process what has happened to us. Most of us just push the feelings down and don’t deal with them.
This suppressed anger, fear, grief, sadness, etc. causes damage if we don’t deal with it. We need to cry, rage, break down and process what has happened.
So when we have these emotionally charged events, you can’t just sugarcoat it with an affirmation without releasing the emotions- even if it happened a very long time ago.
In this week’s Energy Healing Toolkit, I share with you the steps for you to release stored trauma. Our hips are the junk drawers of our bodies. We store a lot of unprocessed emotions here. We must feel in order to heal.
If the trauma effects your daily life, you might want to seek out professional help as there are many therapies that can release trauma. Energy healing is what healed these traumatic events for me, but everyone is different.
In private sessions, we delve deeper into energy, goals and needs.
Thanks for taking this journey with me.
Energy Healing Toolkit How To Heal Trauma
Your hips are the junk drawers of your body. Stored trauma gets housed in your pelvis, the energetic center of your second chakra, the Sacral chakra.
Your Sacral chakra is associated with emotions and with the unconscious. Physically, when you suffer trauma or severe stress, your hip muscles are programmed to easily take fight or flight.