For the longest time, I thought that life was supposed to be a certain way—fun friends, a career that fulfilled me, a beautiful home, and a happy family to complete the perfect package. I truly believed that it was these things that would bring me joy and happiness in my life.
So I did everything I was “supposed” to do. I followed the path I was “supposed” to be following, and I created the life that I “should have” loved. But somewhere deep inside of me knew all along that I was not following my soul’s desire. I had heard my soul’s whisper, and ignored it, and found myself entrenched in people pleasing patterns and things that looked good on paper. I was terrified of criticism, and it was this fear that kept my soul quiet and my feet moving forward on the road I had started down.
And I lived like this for 30 years. It wasn’t until I hit some very trying times that I was forced to wake up and examine my life. I realized that while I hadn’t listened to my intuition or followed my heart in fear of criticism, it was my own inner dialogue, my own inner critic, that had held me hostage all of these years.
I began to dive deep into my inner psyche to break free of my inner critic, this critic’s limiting beliefs, and all of the repressed grief that had built up after years of not listening to my soul. Talk therapy helped me identify exactly what was necessary to heal, but it didn’t actually provide the healing I needed. It wasn’t until a few years later, through energy balancing and clearing techniques, that true healing occurred and real change was finally able to manifest.
Marianne Williamson says,
“Women are still in emotional bondage as long as we have to worry about being heard vs. being loved.”